This is what happened one month after your husband died

This is what happened one month after your husband died

I'll be surprise if someone read this post because i dont give a damn SEO for this one.

1. You'll cry a lot. Like... really a lot. 

2. You'll miss his voice, and if you have his voice in any recording video or voice note, you'll replay it again and again and ...yup, you'll cry again. 

It's fine, don't worry, you lost half of your soul so yeah obviously you cry a lot.

3. Talk to someone. You need to talk to someone and it will be better if she understand your feeling. in this case, i talked to my neighbor who lost her husband 2 years ago. You'll get better point of view (i hope). Or you can talk to psychologist. As long you're not gonna denial about your emptiness inside your heart. 

4. Talk to your children. I know i know you need time to grieving, but they also lost their father, so yeah facing it together will give you more strength. 

5. One day you can walk on the street or drive your car or ride your motorcycle and you ..probably will cry again. It's normal for us because... yep... a lot of memories in your town with him will popping everywhere.

these are actually sounds like westlife song, you know, the "Try Again", but we change the lyric become "Cry Again". Because we're still grieving and it's fine to cry. You dont have to scream, just let that tears out. 

6. You'll probably find some trouble at home. For me it was the ceiling. Ask for help, if you need it. don't push yourself to hard to fix it alone. But if you can fix it alone, that will be ok too. We're getting used to ask for help from our husband so it makes sense if we couldnt handle every trouble by our self alone. I ask a lot of people too, some could fix it others couldnt. And it's fine. 

7. I almost cry when my helmet lost its bolt. I know i have to buy a new bolt but usually it's my husband job to do this screwdriver thing. I was upset and feel so lonely. But i know i had to to do something, so yeah i order the bolt and i fix my helmet when it arrived. It feels so satisfying, know that you still can solve problem by yourself.

8. Life probably will stop for you, but everything around you are still moving on. You probably think life isnt fair. But life is always fair. Allah always know the best thing for you. Try to be positive (eventho its super super hard but i know you can do it)

9. This list probably will get updated in the new post. I just finished wash three bucket of clothes with my own hands and fixed a broken washing machine. I feel so super right now but also so tired. 

wish you good luck and will update again later , xx Be strong Be Brave and Be Gentle with yourself dear. 

Here's a photo of the full moon tonight.